PHOENIX MOURNING LYRICS

1. Across Twenty-Six Winters

As I end this war
Like many times before
I burned these words without a reason
Spit out ashes you're fasting on happiness
This subtle remorse, I claimed treason of course.
The mirrors truth is my reflection
This subtle excuse, no one to blame but you.

Secrets that you cherish, you will take to the grave
It always kills me to see you endure the pain.
And I calculate the same mistakes always being made.
As I shattered this glass that reflects my face.

I died tonight.
(as I end this war)
And never felt so alive.
(like many times before)

I tried to explain to you all of my callous ways.
But I can no longer justify that my past was to blame.
As methodically as the seasons will always change.
I would tear off my facade and replace it with a new face.
And each time a new scar would surface for me to remember.
That it's been twenty six winters and I still have not surrendered.

But if I died tonight my letter would read.
Dear you.

My last breath was in vain.

Sincerely,
Me.

Across twenty six winters.
I died that December night and I still can't remember.
(across December)

Your apathy does not go unnoticed.
And I'm sorry but they all see through you.
Finally face to face.
And finally this ends today.
(your apathy does not ever seem noticed)

Today I will end this war like many times before.
Before the sun sets...

Across twenty six winters.
I died that December night and I still can't remember.
(across December)

Finally face to face.
(and I'm sorry)
And finally this ends today.
(but they can see through you)

2. Contrast

You are everything everyone wanted you to be.
Now it's time for closure.
So I hand you your own eyes back so you can see.
That a whore is priceless in a mind that we erased.
Peel back new skin.
You can still save face.

In vain I will lead you to this blade and show you the way.
But in my heart and with this love...
I refuse to let you die today.
Lay us to rest in your red river.
You will drown in shame.
You can not see that you are the water not the victim.
It is victims that you claim.

Hold on wait for the moment.
Capture it and never let it go.
A last chance for understanding.
But I will not let it show.
I held on and waited for.
What was never mine, and never yours.

I brought flowers to decorate your funeral.
But they just died alone with me in the car.
And I never made it out alive my love.
This blade etched with our names has created two scars.

Spread our wings and through heavens we fly.
We are forever our love will never die.
We were once divided.
But now we see as one again.
Your restless soul will not sleep.
Until it's released of memories of me.

Hold on wait for the moment.
Capture it and never let it go.
A last chance for understanding.
But I will not let it show.
I held on and waited for.
What was never mine, and never yours.

As we aspired to be more.
Your love remained a revolving door.
And as we proceeded, I gave you all you needed.
But in your eyes the sky was falling.
This door no longer revolving.
A last chance for understanding.
Hand to hand we wrote this ending.

In vain, you can.
Faceless love.
With mask's that we wear proudly.
Removing them to see what we want to see.
We are comforted by small talk and sweet kisses.
Isn't love bliss?

Hold on wait for the moment.
Capture it and never let it go.
A last chance for understanding.
But I will not let it show.
Hold and wait for the moment

3. Niche

I wear this heart on my sleeve to remind me...
To cherish the moments that we have shared.
A love so blissful and divine.
With this hatred we have entwined.

This heart will collapse at the site of you.
Intangible at what your eyes always seem to do.
Sight burns, sight seeks.
What is only what we call the truth.
Because only in these eyes this site can see through.
Now she renders her callous side.
(this heart still beats for you)

Corridors with new beginnings.
Sad stories with tragic endings.
He removes from his head this gun.
Rewriting this book from page one.
And as tears fall unseen.
He begins chapter one of this tragedy.

Carve out your niche in your wrist dismiss...
The emotions after you cease to exist.
And I swear to god I want to be changed.
But god swore to run through my blood with my name.

Contented with the notion that this is the only path.
Because change would only allow you to bury your past.
You can not bury what is deep inside of you.
It's that fire in your eyes.
You read them like I do.
Object to reflections of these new beginnings.
(this heart still beats for you)

Corridors with new beginnings.
Sad stories with tragic endings.
He removes from his head this gun.
Rewriting this book from page one.
And his tears will fall unseen.

Beginning to see the end so clear.
Beginning to see what brought me here.
Beginning to see you.
Carve out your niche in your wrist.
It's only now that you finally exist.

Corridors with new beginnings.
Sad stories with tragic endings.
He removes from his head this gun.
Rewriting this book from page one.
As tears fall unseen.
He finishes chapter one of this...
Story written in dreams.
It's so serene when the prophet sings.
That silence is sacred

4. One January Morning

Evidence points the failure in three different directions.
It makes it's pass as my eyes fold from the rejection.
It's decided and you have suffered for far too long.
Again and again you believed, you believed that I was wrong.
You are parched of the truth.
But drown in the water of the truth, the truth that you abused.

It was one January morning that you realized.
You lost everything and everything lost its place today.
Nothing ever stays the same.
Memories even change.
Casting distorted images of my face.

After all.
After all our backs are to the wall.
Sweet surrender.

If you stared long enough this picture would begin to clear.
Beyond the blur is the truth that, that you can not seem to bare
Sixteen acts of desperation in parallel to each other.
A beautiful warmth within this absence you have discovered.

It was one January morning that you realized.
You lost everything and everything lost its place today.
Nothing ever stays the same.
Memories even change.
Casting distorted images of my face.

After all.
After all our backs are to the wall.
Sweet surrender.

I remember warmth through sunrise.
And feeling alive through you.
Speaking a wish now from eyes to sky.
To remove sight and rely on touch tonight.
This one last time from eyes to sky...
And we never realized.
We chase dreams that are in front of our eyes.

After all.
After all our backs are to the wall.
Sweet surrender

5. When The Sky Falls

And I would surrender the last empire tonight.
This has gone far enough to remove these walls that stand for you.

To never return here again.
(for once we are alive)
The fire in the sky...
To never return here with you.
(just once you are mine)
Will lead us tonight.
This is where we've always belonged.
A place we thought we'd lost for so long.

Set the fire the flame has gone.
Saddest eyes, the lies I shunned.
It's on fire the flame has won.
And in time you will see what you've done.

Now decide if this miracle is yours or mine.
And with out haste the biggest mistake I ever made...
Was clearly surrendering my heart today.

To never return here again.
(for once we are alive)
The fire in the sky...
To never return here with you.
(just once you are mine)
Will lead us tonight.
This is where we've always belonged.
A place we thought we'd lost for so long.
Why do I hang on every word you say?

Set the fire the flame has gone.
Saddest eyes, the lies I shunned.
It's on fire the flame has won.
And in time you will see what you've done.

Why do I hang on every word you say?
This empire was built to remain.
This prophecy that you showed me.
These lies on lies that you told me.
You crucified us...
Why do I hang on every word you say?

Set the fire the flame has gone.
Saddest eyes, the lies I shunned.
It's on fire the flame has won.
And in time you will see what you've done.

As vast as the oceans.
As blue as the sky's.
Your love reflected into my eyes

6. From Afar

At gate thirty five I hear her say goodbye.

The loneliest place is at your gate.
Through the crowd searching for your face.
My heart is now your trophy.
Read like a self addressed postcard.
My heart stops beating when yours starts.
My heart is now your trophy.

It occurred to me today.
Hand to pen to callous these thoughts away.
Distance carried herself well.
A phone call and I'm honestly compelled.

At gate thirty five I hear her say goodbye.
(this is your last chance to say)
One more layover in phoenix tonight.
(this is your last chance to stay)

These excuses have become antiques.
And I'm fast to see nothing you've seen.
My heart is now your trophy.
It was never eye to eye.
Staring at your calloused heart like mine.
My heart is now your trophy.

It occurred to me today.
Hand to pen to callous these thoughts away.
Distance carried herself well.
A phone call and I'm honestly compelled.

At gate thirty five I hear her say goodbye.
(this is your last chance to say)
One more layover in phoenix tonight.
(this is your last chance to stay)

These excuses have become...
Antiques place on shelves to admire from afar.
This portrait remains of what we were.

At gate thirty five I hear her say goodbye.
(this is your last chance to say)
One more layover in phoenix tonight.
(this is your last chance to stay)

7. A New Decor

Writers block parting these lips no longer idle.
Your fast to fall gracefully into harm.
And that is your charm dear, that is your charm.

A new decor.
Whats the commotion for?
Her styles a bore.
A movement, a notion and nothing more.

You are a spitting image of a beautiful mockery.
And you are failing to see through this tragedy clearly.

If anything it bares resemblance.
Press your heart to mine to beat the distance.
Touch lips and fall short of a miracle.
Judging by your eyes this empire will fall.

A new decor.
Whats the commotion for?
Her styles a bore.
A movement, a notion and nothing more.

You are a spitting image of a beautiful mockery.
And you are failing to see through this tragedy clearly.

You are a spitting image of a beautiful mockery.
And I watched you spread like disease into me.
Slipped grace and now adorn lies.
White dresses reflect black in light.
A daunting task of photographs.
Memory to flame, burn the past.

You are a spitting image of a beautiful mockery.
And you are failing to see through this tragedy clearly.
We never wanted, never wanted love like this.
We never wanted, never wanted this to end

8. Etched

The beating is of my heart alive again.
Faint sound so frightening, yet so compelling.
Eyes collided, two hearts decided.
This isn't the end it has only started.
Two hearts can beat as one, one beat is not enough.
A line was drawn to never be crossed.
Her cardiac arrest is both of our lives lost.
I etched forever in your eyes.
But forever will always end in time.

A bitter collapse to my knees.
With this bitter kiss.
This shame now feeds sympathy.
Accept your words were severed.
Tears soaked into each page.
You will unwrite this novel.
There are many memories to erase.
I etched forever in your eyes.
But forever will always end in time.

You hear these two hearts they beat as one.
Again I faltered in the end.
You hear these two hearts they beat as one.
Again alone is where I stand.
(forever in your eyes)

Is this the way that she sees me?
A new disease with no remedy.
Is this the way?

On your watch a death has occurred.
The death of you and me.
This love no longer has a pulse.

I etched forever in her eyes.
She asked if I loved her and I replied.

You hear these two hearts they beat as one.
Again I faltered in the end.
You hear these two hearts they beat as one.
Again alone is where I stand.
(forever in your eyes)

If you only didn't let these words fall short of your heart.
I never let these words fall short of my heart.
If I only...

9. The Ornament

Blood thins like water.
This tragedy has no order.
Pray that what remains can redeem me again.
Why have I spread myself this thin?
My god all I ever wanted is answers.

Can't you see I am over.
Can't you see I'm over this?
(this hour glass goes on for days)

Say this for a new report.
As spoken in silent death threats.
Say this or with regret.
Decorate the ornaments place.

A wounded angel has taught me to fly.
My broken wings will never reach the sky.
This is the curse that has now been laid upon me.
As heavens stare down on another tragedy.

Can't you see I am over.
Can't you see I'm over this?
(this hour glass goes on for days)

Say this for a new report.
As spoken in silent death threats.
Say this or with regret.
Decorate the ornaments place.

Through glass eyes...
Are shattered reflections.
Through glass eyes...
Reflect your true intentions.

Will the sun rise above the horizon.
Will tomorrow bring a new light in?

Say this for a new report.
As spoken in silent death threats.
Say this or with regret.
Decorate the ornaments place.

Through these glass eyes...
Are true intentions

10. Waiting For The King

I have collided with the very best of them.
Queens conquering kings bringing this all to an end.
This is nothing, this is nothing more then certainty.
And I am certainly holding on to dreams.
And I am waiting for the king.
Or is the king waiting for me?

Say it's OK but it certainly.
Has a certainty and I'm waiting for the king.
Say it's OK but it certainly.
Has a certainty or is the king waiting for me?

You bare the burden of this ring that you wear.
Its weight, a thousand lies.
Do tell, what you kept inside.
I dreamt of us burning bridges.
Lets leave the bridge burning and build our new dreams.
There's nothing left for us to see.
And I am waiting for the king.
Or is the king waiting for me?

Say it's OK but it certainly.
Has a certainty and I'm waiting for the king.
Say it's OK but it certainly.
Has a certainty or is the king waiting for me?

Say it's OK.
Maybe you get it?
This is something you can't miss.
Just close your eyes and remain motionless.
And I'm sorry that I always let you down.
Dethrone the king and remove his crown.

The city's burning it is certain.
Find the king.
He emerges alive and screaming to me.
"I've lost everything."
"god please bring back the queen."
And when I say "it's too late, no she can't be saved."
He said "weren't you always looking for me?"
"where were you when this fire took everything?"
I'm so sorry...
It seems as if the king was always waiting for me

11. My Future Actress

I am washing my hands of you.
Hand prints on my heart still bleeding through.
A momentary chance for reasoning...
And in the morning she'll be leaving.
This is one fight I can not win.

She is delicate when she smiles at you and you hate it.
Let it go unnoticed, a perfect reflection.
He wants what she wants...
I had seen it in a movie once.
A Hollywood romance and I let it go unnoticed.

It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to this drive.
It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye.

She took the stage on opening night.
It was so beautiful how she moved through the room.
Maybe it was the light...
Or maybe I was consumed.
As I made my way through.
To the front to see...
My future actress in action, acting for me.

These are the confessions of a photograph.
The ones I said that I had burned.
And the ones that you said you took back.
Unnoticed, a perfect reflection.
I am many miles away from everything.
In hopes of never returning.
When you see what I see.
You will notice... a perfect reflection.

It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to this drive.
It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye.

A romance ending gracefully as goodbyes settle the night.
Pictures we paint stained canvases we hate.
One last goodbye and I promise ill never be the same.
Pictures we paint stained canvases we hate.
One last goodbye but I wish you would stay.

It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to this drive.
It's been a long night and I'm not looking forward to saying goodbye

12. Glasskiss

On June 5th mother gave her son a glass kiss that shattered in the distance.
And in that moment was the only innocence that he had ever witnessed.
He has his fathers eyes.
Like the emotions that followed we watched.
And as the spirit is hollowed were taught.
A single word was left alone.
A single kiss destroyed us all.

Distance yourself before less becomes more.
Detach from family because your hearts torn.
I was certain I could mend these wounds.
And you certainly destroyed my views.
In his parents heart is home.
In this empty house, this empty heart is alone.
(with one word, we could have)

I can not erase this side of me.
For years it seemed like a dream.
There is nothing left for me here.
Now that I erased this side of you.
Here is the truth that you never knew.
There is nothing left for you here.

Images imprinted for angels to hold.
In his parents heart is home.
But this fragile soul begins to wear thin.
He has his mothers eyes. he wishes she was here.
This his 26th June 5th, he sits in silence.
4am and he screams again, but no one listens.

The sounds thats made when this heart will break.
A thousand and one smiles but all of them fake.
Crossed out all of the lies...
They stitched shut your honest eyes.
A last reply and you plea...
The whisper remains and her voice is still echoing.
(with one word, we could have)

I can not erase this side of me.
For years it seemed like a dream.
There is nothing left for me here.
Now that I erased this side of you.
Here is the truth that you never knew.
There is nothing left for you.

How far can we take this?
For years it seemed like a dream.
And I will not erase this side of you.
How far can we take this?
For years it seemed like a dream.
And I can not erase this side of me.

And it shines behind him.
Will he find what he's looking for?

I can not erase this side of me.
For years it seemed like a dream.
There is nothing left for me here.
Now that I erased this side of you.
Here is the truth that you never knew.
There is nothing left for you

13. 12.5

PHOENIX MOURNING LYRICS