OKULAR LYRICS

1. Connected In Betrayal

"Connected in betrayal of everything we are,
Covered in everything we are not”

You are a screen,
Unto which I project
Fantasies, needs
My learned behaviour

No doubt it is hard to reach through
You, like myself, are caught
Turmoil is created, in attempts to get rid of this
We know there’s something wrong

Difficult to pinpoint
Everywhere excuses are to be found
And someone to profit off our misery
Why should real change be suggested,
If it would collapse the economy?

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We impose on each other
Unspoken demands
And feast in bitterness, hope and despair
We feel so connected
In this dense betrayal (connected – in – betrayal)
Of everything we are
Covered in everything we are not

We gladly add
Layer by layer
Everything which alienates us from life
We are gladly entertained
And pay greatly
For another emotional outburst so we can reassure ourselves there is still life

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We impose on each other
Unspoken demands
And feast in bitterness, hope and despair
We feel so connected
In this dense betrayal (connected – in – betrayal)
Of everything we are
Covered in everything we are not

No wonder there is some confusion
Despair and grasping towards unrealities
I see myself playing games bound to failure
And laugh at the tripping effect of my insights

How can we truly learn
If unlearning is of utmost importance?

How can we assimilate what we thought to be ourselves
When it was not ourselves in the first place?

This was never ourselves in the first place!

Difficult to pinpoint
Everywhere excuses are to be found
And someone to profit off our misery
Why should real change be suggested,
If it would collapse the economy?

Still there are moments of a different reality
Shining through, it will not die!
I see with awe, a human being
More than enough to fill this emptiness….

We gladly add
Layer by layer
Everything which alienates us from life
We are gladly entertained
And pay greatly
For another emotional outburst so we can reassure ourselves there is still life

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics

Not necessarily accommodated for by internal and external institutions
But hopefully accommodated for by life

That which is lived will be transformed,
But that which is dimly seen somewhere in the shadows
Can “entertain” us forever
Enthrall us forever
We can be lost in how “difficult” everything is….

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics

Create its own dynamics… [2x]

There always needs to be half-heartedness
To keep the tension, the dulling grip
To keep a sense of continuity
Whereas wholeheartedness will create its own dynamics

2. Probiotic (For Life)

"I shall live as intended before i was mended

Tired of being against myself
Let’s have a look what this life has to offer
Let’s look with fresh eyes
I will be surprised!

I’d like to be curious in my encounters
Rather than seeking to repeat my past

Rather than defending myself with aggression
I admit that buttons pushed can make me break
From ice-cold isolation to a fluid substance
I have become becoming itself

I allow myself
And it hurts so much when I claim ownership over my actions
And when I need to become creative as there is no one to blame

It hurts so much when I become responsible for my choices
But it cuts me off
From an endless string of causes and effects

I shall live as intended
Before I was mended

I am now curious in my encounters
Rather than repeating my past
The clinging to any story is not an option
All that is dead will be released…
In the intense process of waking from this dream
To replace my cold, calculated reality
Amidst the desensitization, running from such pure love
I shall take probiotics

Probiotic
Waking from this dream
Probiotic
Can no longer deny the screams
Life is to be lived
Probiotic
There is something to give
Probiotic

I do not need to be predictable and dutiful towards the past

Start today to undeny the presence of your true nature
And let it unfold in all its pain and grace
Give birth to the myriads of expression
In which all the keys will be given

Just let it happen, and start today
To detach from your misery by letting dreams be expressed
The beauty you perceive is real and not to be judged
It is inseparable from you

No longer succumb to the onslaught of our senses
But rise with pride and speak out our names
The beauty you perceive is real and not to be judged
It is inseparable from you

Forever curse that non-existence!

We need reminders
Of that which is, by seeing more clearly that which is not
Manufactured by blinded men
Grasping from their vomiting despair

I shall live as intended
Before I was mended
You do what the fuck you want
But I’d love it if you join me

Probiotic!

Probiotic
Waking from this dream
Probiotic
Can no longer
Deny the screams
Life is to be lived
Probiotic
There is something to give
Probiotic

3. Fuck Your Dignity!

"Plunge into life's liberating insanity,
The health which they fear”

You know nothing but belief
Crippling, static blocks in the river of life
Your fear fuels the self-destruction
Presented as rightful conduct

Your need to present an image
Comes from your rotten hollowness
All your betrayal
Forcing you to retain some “dignity”

Fuck your “dignity” and wake up!
This suffering can open your humanity
Fuck your dignity and wake up!
This pain can show the way straight into yourself

This image is but an image
Another distraction for believers
Another momentary drama
To veil life’s beauty

Empty the rotten conditioned mind
Plunge into life’s liberating insanity, the health which they fear
Gasping from suffocating ties
In line, with tightened assholes

Fuck your “dignity” and wake up!
This suffering can open your humanity
Fuck your dignity and wake up!
This pain can show the way straight into yourself

This image is but an image
Another distraction for believers
Another momentary drama
To veil life’s beauty

And I feel this rhythm inside
Its repercussions can’t be denied

Fuck your dignity and wake up!
This suffering can open your humanity
Fuck your dignity and wake up!
This pain can show the way straight into yourself

And I feel this rhythm inside
Its repercussions can’t be denied

The striving for “perfection” which kills life
You are fighting your own nature!
The fear from being in a body
Makes you go against it, although it is all you claim to have!

Your clinging to beauty makes it rot
The stench you contain within this shell
You hide, forever, from the blessings

Your will to powerlessness
Engulfs your intentions
Surrounds you with quicksand
Life becomes a drag

Your goals focus on comfort
A dead dulling comfort
Dynamics become frightening
And life itself the enemy

Empty the rotten conditioned mind
Plunge into life’s liberating insanity, the health which they fear
Gasping from suffocating ties
In line, with tightened assholes

WAKE UP!

4. Tranquillity Of The Night

[Instrumental]

5. State Of Immediacy

"Thеге was only the bliss from having nothing to hide"

These voices, battling
Some loud, some more subtle
This crowd, this mob
Is there any space for me?

I internalized to protect myself
To survive I had to neglect myself
Thus hatred became synonymous with will to life
But now is the time to create

Empty look in my eyes
Feeling helpless and overwhelmed
Anger brought back the spark
But cleaning the house is only the first step

The vacuum created by sanity is threatening
But the tendency to invite old friends is suffocating

I survived their suffocating grasp before
And I feel afraid to look into the “threats”
Letting something unfamiliar unfold

There are so many choices
Its vastness overwhelms
But bigger is the avoidance
Its stranglehold so sweet

The vacuum created by sanity is threatening
But the tendency to invite old friends is suffocating

Fear masked as tolerance
Fear masked as “understanding”
Fear masked as a need to display strength
These fears pull me from the momentary truths

Suddenly it bursts; no longer a discrepancy
Between my inner acknowledgement and my outer expression
“It’s dangerous” they shouted, “you’ll become so vulnerable”
But there was only the bliss from having nothing to hide [2x]

Hiding or not, it became irrelevant to me
I found meaning in CREATION

Boundaries disappeared as I entered a state of immediacy prior to labeling
Enabled me to associate freely
Free from attachments based on fear of rejection

Suddenly it bursts; no longer a discrepancy
Between my inner acknowledgement and my outer expression
“It’s dangerous” they shouted, “you’ll become so vulnerable”
But there was only the bliss from having nothing to hide

The vacuum created by sanity (is threatening)
But the tendency to invite old friends (is suffocating)

Boundaries disappeared as I entered a state of immediacy prior to labeling
Enabled me to associate freely
Free from attachments based on fear of rejection

6. Choose To Be Free

"To live with lies forever,
Is one aspect of free will...”

I saw myself today like I never did before
I saw no reason to settle any score
And what I found is not there for any price
All I did was fucking cutting through the lies

As I feel the obedience wither
Towards alien things in me
Their substance becomes
Not one that is substantial to me

To live with lies forever
Is one aspect of free will
But cutting through the bullshit
Is what will make me real

I came to know myself like no one will again
As reality is a flux and it makes no sense to pretend

And what I found was not in exchange for my cries
All I did was fucking cutting through the lies

I know these flames take me higher
Higher than any of your desires
I came to know myself
Could not stand another day

In this house of misery,
There’s always something I try to be
When I cut through the obnoxious mist
I’ll dissolve every obstacle

I stumbled upon your reactions
And feelings of shock emerged
As the waves came floating higher
But you refused to let them purge

Come on!

Oh!

Living in “control”, you’ll never see it anyway
Blowing through a pipe that’s blocked, there is another way
Roaming through the cemetery of our shallow dreams
Abolish your conformity and choose to be free once again

Seeing its face, and all its reactions
Never submit to its contractions

This time I will
Not fall in this pit again
This time I will
Not fall!

I know these flames take me higher
Higher than any of your desires
I came to know myself
Could not stand another day

In this house of misery
There’s always something I try to be
When I cut through the obnoxious mist
I’ll dissolve every obstacle

To live with lies forever
Is one aspect of free will
But cutting through the bullshit
Is what will make me real

I came to know myself like no one will again
As reality is a flux and it makes no sense to pretend 2X

7. Flowers Uncared For

"But tomorrow will be beautiful”

Life presents flowers everyday
They are uncared for
Unwanted
Because they are really elsewhere

In the future we’re preparing for
As we’re killing ourselves today
But tomorrow will be beautiful
It exists in our thoughts

Intangible
It keeps us occupied
Something is being pushed
It is great

Now we are melting
Into our souls
We’ll shatter all denial
This is the melting
Into our souls
Awaken from denial

There is still life
When we drag our dead bodies once again
To feel ashamed and embarrassed, then rejoice in our revolutionary spirit

Then criticize each other
Waste our energy in all possible ways

We feel so powerful in our display of powerlessness
In our dependency on the “weak” to feel our “strength”
We are really parasites
What is this substance we are living off?
It upholds itself for ever
Because we believe it to be real

Now we are the melting
Into our souls
We’ll shatter all denial
This is the melting
Into our souls
Awaken from denial

We could look elsewhere
And be shocked
By simplicity
Grace
Complexity
But we look where nothing is happening
Although it seems so busy

And busyness means business
And business means importance
And importance means power
And power means sex
And it goes on in an endless dance
A dance of mistaken identities, a stew, a masquerade
And we feel so delighted by the cards being played
By ourselves

We could look elsewhere
And be shocked
By simplicity
Grace
Complexity

Life presents flowers everyday
Let them be cared for
Appreciated
Because they are really here

8. Celebration

[Instrumental]

9. The Most Violent Thing

"The most violent thing is the rushing to conclusions,
Protecting ourselves from feeling life”

The most violent thing is the rushing to conclusions…
Rejecting life by fearful clinging to delusions…

The fearful insistency on “peace” at all costs, obscures any attempt of understanding
The violence inherent in too much “softness” and “delicacy”
Making yourself fragile, prone to victimhood

I am looking, deep down inside, free from your wishes, free from your answers
I am looking, deep down inside, choose to be living, choose to be free

The power to define who the perpetrators are
While boiling with justified anger and hatred
The power to define who the perpetrators are
Protected behind a veil of morality

The most violent thing on our souls is when our experience is not met
And we choose to put it aside for some ideal to replace reality

If we neglect all our ”knowledge”, if we let go of our “pride”
We can get a fresh new view without having to face decline

Talk directly, and forget what we “learned”!
Address the strength in each other!
The will to endure, live, breathe!

The most violent thing is the rushing to conclusions
Protecting ourselves from feeling life

This is holy judgment, the longing of my soul
This is sacred, free the longing of my soul

If we neglect all our ”knowledge”, if we let go of our “pride”
We can get a fresh new view without having to praise decline

The most violent thing is the rushing to conclusions…
Rejecting life by fearful clinging to delusions…

I am looking, deep down inside, free from your wishes, free from your answers
I am looking, deep down inside, choose to be living, choose to be free 3X

We will succeed
In our will to endure, live, breathe! [2x]

I am looking, deep down inside, free from your wishes, free from your answers
I am looking, deep down inside, choose to be living, choose to be free 2X

We will succeed
In our will to endure, live, breathe!

10. Creativity Or Fear

"Preparing yourself to be honest
Will it happen in your grave?”.

Laugh at your cancerous ways
With no means of repression, what the fuck can you do but live?

Discover that life has meaning when you let that meaning go
Put a mic to those idiots in your head
Let the posers around you laugh as they listen to themselves

Fuck the disabled body of your fears, see it is not yours
Give it back to whom it belongs, to no one [2x]

Creativity or fear
The choice is yours
The dangerous dignity of man

Embrace it or be consumed
By imported dreams

Investing your life in distraction
It creates fear being away from home
Around that fear you built your life

Feeling alive can happen this moment, needs no preparation
Preparing yourself to be honest, will it happen in your grave?

Fuck the disabled body of your fears, see it is not yours
Give it back to whom it belongs, to no one [2x]

Put a mic to those idiots in your head
Let the posers around you laugh as they listen to themselves

Preparing yourself to live tomorrow, you might not get another chance
Urgency enables
The possible dignity of man

The threatening dignity of man
It shall threaten you until you love yourself

Creativity or fear, the choice is yours,
The dangerous dignity of man
Embrace it or be consumed
By imported dreams

Rip through the falsehood inhabiting the body you call yourself
Fuck those intruders so deeply they will never return to your home

Then fuck yourself so deeply you will never return
Then let life inhabit your body

You believe something new will emerge
Reverence for the remote controlled life
Preprogrammed options, a timeframe so limited,
Nothing substantial

Fuck your drama, seeking acceptance and a fair judgment
You cannot accept yourself!
Forget all judgments and embrace what is in your control; your choice
Fear or creativity

Fuck the disabled body of your fears, see it is not yours
Give it back to whom it belongs, to no one [2x]

You believe something new will emerge
Reverence for the remote controlled life
Preprogrammed options, a timeframe so limited
Nothing substantial







OKULAR LYRICS