NORTHERN GHOST LYRICS

1. Deathwish

I'm covered in scars deeper than an ocean
We bury the truth as a notion
But all these faceless bodies tell me what I need to know
I walk the halls of regret
With no end in sight it's not over yet
We all change when the sun goes down

It's funny we see things so different in the dark
It's funny how life works when everything falls apart

Yeah yeah

So this is what it's like to die
To be on the other side
I'm afraid that I won't catch you
Is it God is it me
Who's controlling everything
Does it matter when I'm begging for a death wish
Death wish
Death wish

Pull me under 'cause I'm not the same
And I'm not the way they want me to be
Is this the only thing you seem to notice
Give me my mind give me back my mistakes

So this is what it's like to die
To be on the other side
I'm afraid that I won't catch you
Is it God is it me
Who's controlling everything
Does it matter when I'm begging for a death wish
Death wish
Death wish

I think I need a priest to exercise what's in my head
He took a look at me and told me I'm already dead

So this is what it's like to die
To be on the other side
I'm afraid I won't catch you
Is it God is it me
Who's controlling everything
Does it matter when I'm begging for a death wish
Death wish
Death wish

Oh!

So this is what it's like to die
To be on the other side
I'm afraid I won't catch you
Is it God is it me
Who's controlling everything
Does it matter when I'm begging for a death wish
Death wish
Death wish
Death wish

Searching and searching for a death wish
But something inside is telling me I can't quit
Drag my body
Drag my body
Bring me back to life

He told me he told me he took a look at me and told me

2. Not The Real Me

You're blurring out your reasons
Blur it out
Blur it out
You threw me to the flames
Burn it down
Burn it down
There's no way I'm escaping
Get me out
Get me out
Stuck in fate

Can you sense it
An open exit
But a door not big enough for all of the desperate
We're trying to change
The rules of the game
From the same thing to the same thing

If we don't end this then it'll end us
So if we want them to take us serious
We have to open up our eyes
We have to make them realize that we're gonna rise

Hold on this is getting worse
(This is getting worse)
While I hang by a thread and they're one step ahead
Pretending they're breaking this curse
Resistance is no use a coma self induced
Accepting what I'm meant to be but that's not the real me
It's not the real me

Did you find it
Another counterfeit
Spinning in the cycle of being a hypocrite
We're better than this
The game that we quit
It's the same thing the same thing

Hold on this is getting worse
(This is getting worse)
While I hang by a thread and they're one step ahead
Pretending they're breaking this curse
Resistance is no use a coma self induced
Accepting what I'm meant to be but that's not the real me

I'm stuck in fate
Fate
I'm stuck in fate

You're blurring out your reasons
Blur it out
Blur it out
You threw me to the flames
Burn it down
Burn it down
There's no way I'm escaping
Get me out
Get me out
Stuck in fate

Go!

Stuck in fate

Hold on this is getting worse
(This is getting worse)
While I hang by a thread and they're one step ahead
Pretending they're breaking this curse
Resistance is no use a coma self induced
Accepting what I'm meant to be but that's not the real me

Fate
I'm stuck in fate

3. Heart Of Stone

We were watched
Being tested in paranoia
You say you want to die
Well so do I

I'm deaf to every word
Every truth they try to force in me
When will you realize
That we're all hypnotized
Everyone is a fake
No matter what they say
We over analyze
We can't be recognized here

We were watched
Being tested in a paranoia

Take my heart
When I fall apart
Take my heart when there's nowhere to turn to
A heart of stone that'll never desert you

I hope you're watching me close

I'm innocent
Innocent
But you caught me in a tidal wave (wave)
Drowning in
All the sin
But I found a way to get away (away)
So get away

Now it's my turn to make a move
Now it's my turn to show you
Who's in control
I'll never change
You'll never learn
Yeah!
I'll never change
You'll never learn
And we'll both be trapped here

Take my heart
When I fall apart
Take my heart when there's nowhere to turn to
A heart of stone that'll never desert you
Come with me
Forget everything
Come with me and I'll start over with you
Even if I would drag you to hell too

See the thing about a heart of stone
Is that it always breaks a heart of glass
And when the fear of pain is on its own
Maybe then the dark times will pass

Take my heart
When I fall apart
Take my heart when there's nowhere to turn to
A heart of stone that'll never desert you
Come with me
Forget everything
Come with me and I'll start over with you
Even if I would drag you to hell

4. False Paradise

Cut me off cut me out
I'm everything that you feared you wanted
Cut me off cut me out
These ropes around my neck

I am not even here anymore
My mind has been replaced
Left wide open and vulnerable
I want it all erased
Oh!
It's best to leave it alone
Let it heal let it learn let it grow
(Oh no)
But I'm the passionate type
I never quit but never can live to the hype

Take my hand and fall down with me
I swear I'll never let it go

We're slipping under
We're tranquilized in false paradise
Trade your blood for lies
It's now or never
No thinking twice
What we believe in won't believe in us

Secrets living inside of my throat (inside of my throat)
I constantly decay
Words left silent are choking me up (choking me up)
Can't end the suffering
Oh!
I couldn't leave it alone
On my tongue in the dark on its own
(Oh no)
Aren't we the fortunate ones
With what we know and nothing but this loaded gun

Take my hand and fall down with me
I swear I'll never let it go

We're slipping under
We're tranquilized in false paradise
Trade your blood for lies
It's now or never
No thinking twice
What we believe in won't believe in us

Author of my life read me the title
Happy sad depressed suicidal
Author of my life tell me the truth
Am I emotionless or was it my corrupted youth

False paradise
We paid the price

We're slipping under
We're tranquilized in false paradise
Trade your blood for lies
It's now or never
No thinking twice
What we believe in won't believe in us

We're slipping under
We're tranquilized in false paradise
Trade your blood for lies
It's now or never
No thinking twice
What we believe in won't believe in us

5. Clouds

Recourse recourse recourse
And if I failed to mention the words I've been saying are
Keeping you half alive
Well I'm sorry but I can't escape from the way that I think
You see me giving out a blank stare
Sinking into the dark but I don't care
Never feeling right
Cursing that my soul and I
Never wanted the same

Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds
Come down
It'll tear me apart til we're deep underground
Held back everything and you're suddenly
Right back to the place you don't wanna be
Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds

Relapse relapse relapse
Well I'm sorry that I didn't turn out the way I should
Show me you're still alive
I can feel a heart beating where I know I'm dead inside

Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds
Come down
It'll tear me apart til we're deep underground
Held back everything and you're suddenly
Right back to the place you don't wanna be
Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds

They were the ones who said that I need this
They were the ones who told me I had nothing left
But how are we to know the way that this should end
If all that we hear is what we comprehend

Its never over

So come down
So come down
Yeah

Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds
Come down
It'll tear me apart til we're deep underground
Held back everything and you're suddenly
Right back to the place you don't wanna be
Come down
What's it like with your head in the clouds

6. On My Own

Pain is becoming too familiar
Rain from a little black cloud follows me
I forgot what's its like to be in the light
And the storm overhead always pours in the day and the night
But that's alright
That's alright

I pulled the trigger at the edge of the world
There's nothing left for us here
Or would you rather see me disappear
So if I end up in a lifeless nowhere
I'll crawl back to my hole
And now there's nowhere else for me to go
I'm on my own

Love is becoming unfamiliar
Death is the only thing that's haunting me
But no ghost can posses me
If I'm not alive I'm not alive
Always left second guessing the will I have left in the fight
But not this time
Not this time

I pulled the trigger at the edge of the world
There's nothing left for us here
Or would you rather see me disappear
So if I end up in a lifeless nowhere
I'll crawl back to my hole
And now there's nowhere else to go
I'm on my own

You don't know what I'm capable of
I'm not dead yet I just should be
And I don't think you should stay long enough to find out
To find out
To find out
To find out
To find out

I pulled the trigger at the edge of the world
There's nothing left for us here
Or would you rather see me disappear
So if I end up in a lifeless nowhere
I'll crawl back to my hole
And now there's nowhere else for me to go
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own
I'm on my own

Yeah

7. If I'm Still Breathing, Then I'm Still Waiting

I can see my outer body float above my head
When I'm deprived is when I try and sink instead
I've been terrified of what's behind those hazy eyes
So rip them out and end it
Backed in a corner like a fox I shape shift my way away
Lunacy derived from the spirit that's now possessing me
Slave to the illusion

Black White
Day Night
Dark Light
Peace Fight

How did it ever come to this
Holding the knife in my hands
Being fearless left me lifeless
But now I'm finding out I fell in doubt
All these visions seem to never let me go
So maybe if I'm still breathing
Then I'm still waiting
For someone like you to kill me soon

Focus
I'm living inside a box of glass
I watch it crack
I watch it shatter
As if any of this would matter
Every clock is broken
Everything is still and I slowly fade away

How did it ever come to this
Holding the knife in my hands
Being fearless left me lifeless
But now I'm finding out I fell in doubt
All these visions seem to never let me go
So maybe if I'm still breathing
Then I'm still waiting
For someone like you to kill me soon

Watch me clean up the guts I spilled
And I hope that you enjoy the show

How did it ever come to this
Holding the knife in my hands
Being fearless left me lifeless
But now I'm finding out I fell in doubt
All these visions seem to never let me go
So maybe if I'm still breathing
Then I'm still waiting
For someone like you to kill me

I'm begging you just to kill me now

If I'm still breathing then I'm still waiting
If I'm still breathing then I'm still waiting

We're overthrown
The innocent spinning
The world isn't spinning
I'm all alone
Caught in your gravity
And its been hell for me

8. Face To Face

Dark circles around my eyes
I hold my breath and fear the compromise
I'm sick of taking it slow
I hope you know where to go
Oh cuz I've abandoned you

When the sun washed away
You were the moonlight when my skies were gray

Standing face to face with fate
Turn it into what I hate
Cutting into my own chest
Let me tell you there's nothing left

Whats another scar or two
When skin was made to rot off you
I wanna confiscate your insides
I wanted to see where your demons hide
So maybe I could find myself a safe place for me too

Standing face to face with fate
Turn it into what I hate
Cutting into my own chest
Let me tell you there's nothing left
If you want to haunt my dreams
I never want to fall asleep
Or if you tell me you don't care
Let me tell you life isn't fair

I wasn't ready for this
Oh and I don't think that I ever will be

Oh its embedded in me its embedded in you
I never thought that it would get through
I tried to make it okay tried to make them stay
But they do things their way

I can be who you want me to
I can be who you want me to
I can be who you want me to
I can be who you want me to

Standing face to face with fate
Turn it into what I hate
Cutting into my own chest
Let me tell you there's nothing left
If you want to haunt my dreams
I never want to fall asleep
Or if you tell me you don't care
Let me tell you life isn't fair

9. Purge

Desolation turned into machines
But they're too busy watching us from satellites to streets
Ignore the warning signs look the other way
There's nothing left to say

A nation full of narcissists a colony of killers
(War)
Society of psychopaths holding up the pillars
(War)

They control the surface of our screens
Spinning in a carousel of dying hopes and dreams
They tell us what to think they tell us what to feel
They tell us what to kill

And we all obey
We're all lead astray

I felt the world halt
Its purging us reverting back to the start

We're having an emergency

Low
A new low
A new low for all the parasites that turn us into drones
They hide in the shadows

Oh!

I see all of the pieces becoming clear
I see a bigger picture revealing our toxic atmosphere

I felt the world halt
Its purging us reverting back to the start
I couldn't make out what the symbols meant
But I believe this time we've gone too far

If only we had more time
There's no one left to blame
If only we had more time
There's no one left to blame
If only we had more time
There's no one left to blame
If only we had more time
There's no one left to blame

Sacrifice

When you look up at your life
Are you really worth saving
When you look up at your life
Are you really worth saving

I felt the world halt
Its purging us reverting back to the start
I couldn't make out what the symbols meant
But I believe this time we've gone too far

If only we had more time
There's no one left to blame

10. Hole

Phantoms follow me because my poor self couldn't handle it
I guess it's ok
God only knows I could use the company
Demons tuck you in because your poor self couldn't handle it
I guess it's ok
You never knew til the voice was deafening

Scream out your lungs dirty your hands
It's time for the wolves to give up their demands
Let em all know
Let em all know
Let em all know
That we're here to revolt

We are so lost in the white noise
Even my soul tried to get away
But now I'm caught in this hole
I can't see how it was supposed to be
No I can't tell if anyone is finally listening

Claw at the wall
Bite your nails to the bone
Lock yourself in your lust
Dig in your neck
With the blade of your rapture
Cuz that's all you're gonna get

We are so lost in the white noise
Even my soul tried to get away
But now I'm caught in this hole
I can't see how it was supposed to be
No I can't tell if anyone is finally listening

I know I'm sick but you're much sicker
I know I'm sick but you're much sicker
I know I'm sick but you're much sicker
I know I'm sick but you're much more sick in the head

Dead

Demons tuck you in
Demons tuck you in

We are so lost in the white noise
Even my soul tried to get away
But now I'm caught in this hole
I can't see how it was supposed to be
No I can't tell if anyone is finally listening

Is anyone listening
Is anyone listening
Is anyone listening

11. Terminal

I'm terminal

I feel them crawling underneath my skin
Knowing exactly how I tick tick tick
Why can't I fake a superficial sin
I want them genuinely sick sick sick sick sick
Add your name to the list

(When the morning breaks)

When the morning breaks my hands will start to shake
The waking light exposing me of all of my mistakes
But it's just leaving me blind and I can't see in the dark
A little taste of heaven has left me scarred and marked
I've been marked

Isn't God with me?
Or is the devil playing games again
You know how much he loves the irony
Codependent kid I can't go on with only one of them I need them both to keep my sanity

Run
We'll run forever
We're not turning back
Cuz they can only follow us if we don't stop
So let's stay on track
My legs are giving out
(Run)
A whisper to a shout
(Run)
How can I stay away if my body won't even let me

When the morning breaks my hands will start to shake
The waking light exposing me of all of my mistakes
But it's just leaving me blind and I can't see in the dark
A little taste of heaven has left me scarred and marked
I've been marked

I'm terminal

Bite
Bite
How does it taste to figure out the truth?
White
White
Just like your eyes when I get through with you

I've lost everything
So I've got nothing to lose
I've lost everything
So I've got nothing to lose
I've got nothing
I've got nothing

When the morning breaks my hands will start to shake
The waking light exposing me of all of my mistakes
But it's just leaving me blind and I can't see in the dark
A little taste of heaven has left me scarred and marked
I've been marked

When the morning breaks my hands will start to shake
The waking light exposing me of all of my mistakes
But it's just leaving me blind and I can't see in the dark
A little taste of heaven has left me scarred and marked
I've been marked

I'm terminal

12. The Donors

Tragedy
Consuming me
Fake your love
Infinitely

I need more inspiration
So I'll continue thanking
The donors
The donors
I'm here for my donors

My third eye
Is going blind
Paralyzed
My vacant mind

If every life in this world comes with a death sentence
Is that the reason I can still feel my mother present
I'll never leave here again
Because I'm nothing without them

The donors
The donors
I'm here for my donors

We are we are the donors
We are we are the donors
We are we are the donors
We are we are

The reason I breathe
Is now the reason I can't fall asleep
I thought I left it behind, only to find
They bled me dry like last time

I'm not afraid of the dark
But I'm afraid of you
I'm not afraid of the pain
I'm scared of what I'll do
I brought this on myself
I craved the worst I'm going through
The voices said I need it that's why
I'm addicted to

The donors
The donors
I'm here for my donors

We are we are the donors
We are we are the donors
We are we are the donors
We are we are







NORTHERN GHOST LYRICS