MY LIFE'S DESPAIR LYRICS

1. As Flames Ignite

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: N. Sanity/Larshus]

What dastardly deeds men do
Religion, a crux delivering scars
They are coming

The peasants surround, they have come to take my life
With a holy resolve, they have come to rape my wife
Say I'm in league with the devil, a perverter of faith
Call me a deceiver, cheater, a non-believer
The trial will seal my fate

[whispers of witch]

Bound and gagged, the trial begins in haste
A circle is made, the men of cloth begin to debate
Say I'm in league with the devil, a threat to their control
Call me a deceiver, cheater, a non-believer
Only fire can cleanse the soul

As flames ignite, they will take our life, as flames ignite

I beg, I plea, he has never hurt anyone, nor me
A man of science, seeker of truth, with integrity

My love, my dear, they wont listen to me,
I will remember what you shown, watch the stars in secrecy

I am bound, as I scream my only pleas,
Fire surrounds, as the flames reach my knees,
I can't distinguish reality, I can't stop the pain,
I am choking, smoking, the crowd is poking,
As the flames sears through my brain

2. A Caress Of Stars

[Lyrics: Tiamat, music: Tiamat]

3. Patterns In The Chaos

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: N. Sanity/Larshus]

Dark days, dark ways
You will find,
The suffering of humankind

A quest to know, about our past
Cosmically seek,
How history repeats

[Carl Sagan:]
In our tenure on this planet,
we have... accumulated dangerous, evolutionary baggage,
propensity for aggression, ritual, submission to leaders,
hostility to outsiders,
all of which puts our survival ...in some doubt.

Amidst wars and fear, I search for truth
Superstition reigns, and idiocy gains
With skeptical means, I can show you proof
Religious bigotry hate, the catalyst of our doom

Try to find, the patterns in the chaos
The suffering is eternal

Ancient stains, knowledge reclaimed
So obtuse,
Our leaders who abandon truth

Some can see, what lies ahead
Knowledge decrease,
Ignorance plus tech equals us deceased

Try to find, the patterns in the chaos
The suffering is eternal

Look to find, the patterns in the chaos
Our search is in vain

Seeking out, the patterns in the chaos
The suffering is eternal

Need to find, the patterns in the chaos
To calm my soul, but it's in vain

Here me cry, the patterns in the chaos
Our only hope is each other...sigh

4. She Said Forever

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: Larshus/N. Sanity]

Two winters, are what we shared
Forever, on your mind
Past feelings restrain me
As we kiss and embrace

You said you would love me forever

Callous by past lies
I concede my soul to you
Opened up and exposed
For you

I weep to hear you say....you don't love me

She said... Forever!

5. No Hope For Tomorrow

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: Larshus]

Befuddled and confused, as my world comes crashing down
There is nothing to do to save it, only emptiness to be found

There's no hope for tomorrow, she lives for the day
I no longer love you, is all she would say

Things we shared mean nothing, the pain of empty dreams
Shattered, like a glass, the coldness of reality

There's no hope for tomorrow, she lives for the day
I no longer love you, is all she would say
There's no hope for tomorrow, she lives for the day
Sitting in this empty room all alone, wallowing in pain

Starting all over, just seems bleak to me
Without you here by my side, you're just dead to me

There's no hope for tomorrow, she lives for the day
I no longer love you, is all she would say
There's no hope for tomorrow, she lives for the day
Sitting in this empty room all alone, wallowing in pain

6. Apparitions Of The Sky

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: N. Sanity/Larshus]

Look up, you will see, the entirety
Ancient entities, dead from eons ago
They travel through space and time
Apparitions of the sky, corpses rotting slow

I gaze and marvel .... at our majestic scenery
Shadows of life long gone, how peaceful they seem
Swirling madness of chaos, the patterns they form
I long for longevity, echoing through eternity

Count them!
If you try
Count them......watch them die

I have seen them fall
I have seen them darkened
I have seen them dim
Falling again

I have seen them bright
I have seen them daunting
I have seen them inspire
Always haunting ...me

Look up, you will see, the entirety
Ancient entities, dead from eons ago
They travel through space and time
Apparitions of the sky, corpses rotting slow

Your eyes turn misty, as you gaze upon the ancient gore
You bask in their perceived warmth, knowing they exist no more

Stunned by silence, struck by awe
Revered through knowledge, death comes for all
A last silent glimpse, as the their fading light gleams
We gaze and wonder, hopelessness is all it seems

7. Regrets

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: Larshus]

My search ends in vain, only my love for you remains
Trapped in these walls of hate, last wish for us to embrace
Crying, to see you again, to hold you in my arms
And dry this empty sorrow, of life and regrets

Regrets

My search ends in vain, only my love for you remains
Trapped in these walls of hate, last wish for us to embrace
Crying, to see you again, to hold you in my arms
And dry this empty sorrow, of life and regrets

Regrets

So many things, left undone
All hope for redemption, lost in the waning years
Memories, my nightmares, will not let me be
And my cries, are all I hear

No hope, no love
Doesn't matter anymore
Our pride and arrogance
Has done us all in

8. Dream Dimension

[Instrumental]

[Music: N. Sanity/Larshus]

9. In The Cosmic Laboratory

[Lyrics: Larshus, music: Larshus]

The search for meaning, we all partake
This world, is built on fakes
The worst thing I can think, for all of us
Is to die alone, and alone is what I am

No meaning, no goals
And the chaos pursues
No god, no soul
As they try to control you

No meaning, no goals
And the chaos pursues
No god, no soul
I still love you

Days slip by, and the years removed
Our death, is coming soon
Random multiverse, seeking comfort in the sky
We only ask why!

We are the rats, in the cosmic laboratory
But that still makes god, the vivisectionist

[break down]

I can not cope with this emptiness
Your dark eyes ascend thee
If only I could find the one
If only I could hold the sun
If only...

I can not forgive your betrayal, your weakness
Sadness and grief to find
Anguish, disbelief
Great me with a smile

Where's God!
The creator who cares

Still hanging on, with no expectations long
I regret my existence
I dream of the end so near, it seems so clear
And suddenly, I would feel no pain!

No meaning, no goals
And the chaos pursues
No god, no soul
I still love you

We are the rats, in the cosmic laboratory
But that still makes god, the vivisectionist
We are the rats, in the cosmic laboratory







MY LIFE'S DESPAIR LYRICS